I really don’t want him to define himself as being, you know, a mental patient. Or even bipolar because that’s not who he is. I mean here is this perfectly healthy, brilliant student and then –
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The next thing, you know, he’s in a mental hospital. I mean you would never know just by looking at him. But he’s worked very hard to be where he is now.
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I almost hate to point out some of the positives in this.
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There’s undeniably some things. For example I went to the Galleria to buy women’s size 4 extra tight black jeans. And I was looking in the mirror, I didn’t have any shoes on or my shirt and I ran through the Galleria, like sprinted through it. And I felt so amazing, I felt on top of the world.
He also was pretty psychotic. Thought he was some master computer that could fix everybody.
I did have hallucinations. They were sort of like visions. Whenever I’d sort of meditate or close my eyes and start thinking. And a movie would just start to unfold. And then I would switch to some crazy form of depression where I couldn’t even move.
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I felt symptoms of both. I would feel trapped and lonely from depression but I would also feel grandiose and have delusions from mania. There was this one point where I was just so sad and so drained of energy from this problem that I literally just collapsed to the floor. I’d never felt that intensity of sadness before. It made me realize how bad life could get and how I think it can get so bad that it’s not even worth continuing.
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At the time I felt very responsible for my depression. But once you understand they come from chemicals in the situation it’s empowering because you realize ‘oh, I just need to change the situation of the chemicals.’ It becomes less paralyzing and it becomes less personal.
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After he was on the Lithium and certainly after a while he was new and improved.
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It’s like most people you know have this wave of ups and downs. Manic depressive people will have ups and downs and if you trigger it enough it will break the threshold level and you’ll go way up and you’ll go way down. I think what Lithium does it creates a barrier where you can’t break that threshold level.
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Now that I think he understands what the medicine can do for him, I think he’s really into it.
What I’d have to say to anyone going through this or anything similar to this is to not take this into your own hands. This is an issue that needs to be taken to professional help. Medicine and therapy are the professional help that are truly needed to address this.
Director: Nader Ibrahim, Jay Farnie
Born and raised in Houston, TX, Nader Ibrahim has always had a great passion for telling stories through the lens of a camera. After graduating from the University of Texas with a degree in Radio-TV-Film, Nader has maintained a strong purpose in using his artistic crafts to help nourish the lives of the people around him. Whether it be directing a documentary on mental health or creating his own music about the struggles and beauty of life, Nader has always believed that the greatest thing that any human can do is be true to their heart. By doing that, he believes that one may be able to keep growing in whatever craft one chooses to pursue, and be able to tap into one's unlimited creative potential. Currently, Nader is residing back in Houston, TX and his working on finishing his second home-produced music album under the name 'Nader and the Trees'. For now, he has taken up two part time jobs as cameraman for PBS, while also teaching chess at elementary schools. His greater plan though is to continue creating films and music, while telling meaningful stories through his artistic crafts.
With the goal to remove social stigma through art, Jay Farnie left his hometown of Houston, Texas for Los Angeles, California. Currently working at Abso Lutely Productions, Jay continues to further his purpose, making both challenging dramatic and comedic content in the realm of short films, sketch comedy, and music videos.